evyandhunter's Cancer Blog
April 17, 2008
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I (Hunter) feel really helpless in this whole situation. From what Evy tells me, her ALL has gotten worse. I know she is in a good deal of pain and discomfort, and it kills me that I can’t do anything about it. Evy is a wonderful girl; in fact, she is the most amazing person I ever met, and she certainly deserves much better. I know it’s not my fault, but I can’t help but feel that I am letting her down in some way.
I find myself always thinking back to a story she told me that gives a glimpse of what an awesome person she is. She came across a little girl in the ER a couple weeks ago who asked her if she knew sign language. She began to sign back to her, and the girl told her that she had a brain tumor. Evy then gave her a little info about her situation and gave the girl her phone number. She told her to let her mommy call and set up a little lunch date for the two of them at some point. I just thought that was one of the sweetest things I have ever heard. Evy is one of the most giving and caring people I have ever known, and I love her very much.
I hope to continue to be here for her on a daily basis to help her keep a positive attitude. I still think we can make it through all this, and I want to continue to let her know that. This girl is my world, and I am certainly not going to let her go without an epic fight. She is a warrior, so we might have a Rambo kind of thing going here. I think she could take out a whole army, and I plan on being in the audience…or the comic relief sidekick.
06.22.08 - 
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Dear Hunter; you and Evy sound like wonderful people. Your love for her is real and compassionate. Don’t ever forget that you nor Evy caused this disease. Too many times we feel the guilt because we feel helpless. Just being there for Evy, supporting her is just as much help as you can give at this point. It is just as painful to watch a loved one struggle and fight but this is what humans do. It is our own personal test, one which comes before us all as we are all mortal. I saw a programme on PBS last night which might help you. Go to pbs.org and click on Take One Step/Cancer. This is a panel of Doctors mostly who are surviving with Cancer and it talks about how they treat their patients. You might find inspiration there. My hope is that you stay strong, get rested for you are now on a heavy load journey. My prayers are with you. Weezie from Canada eh.
You Go Bro! That’s spoken like a peaceful warrior!
Its gotta be so tough to be you right now (both of ya’s), but it sounds as if your approach is not only intelligent but sensitive and heartfelt.
I love my father a great deal and seeing how bright he’s shining right now is incredible. The story about the little girl in the ER is outstanding! I have been learnin ASL since a skateboard homie of mine is deaf, so he’s been schoolin me.
POSITIVE!Timothy